First, theres the initial moment where you’re like “oh hell no, you did not just do that”
Then theres the “am I crazy for being mad about this?”
And then when you’re done being mad, you start to feel shitty. Empty and shitty.
And then you spend all day thinking about why. And you lose your concentration.
And then comes the anxiety. The heart palpitations and the nervousness. And then the crying.
And then, more anger.
Anger because one person made it impossible for you to ever trust someone completely, ever again.